Winter Break

as the break closes and the end of the year is less than 24hrs away, i am looking back at the last 3 weeks or so. i had so many plans to do so much over this break and i did none of it. this break i did nothing but be disobedient and waste time. only in the closing part of this break did i learn anything and did i realize what the Lord was revealing to me. I need to renew my ideas and thinking of who He is. i need to re prioritize things in my life and to take Hold of Him. to not look at the Lord as a distant figure but as a very near person. to see Him in the light of each day and to involve Him in every aspect of my day to day life, not just when i am in desperate need of help or when the sky is falling, but in day to day activities. i need Him all times of the day no matter what is happening, from times of struggles and peril or times of joy and favor, He needs to be involved in everything. this all seems very obvious and something that DCF had talked about alot last year and even parts of this year, but sometimes it takes more than a sermon to fully understand what it looks like to let your guard down and to surrender all to the Lord. that is really what i am looking at right now. that is what i have learned.